Post "RNY take down.I've got new demons to conquer. My demons are big and I FEEL HUGE.

My gastric bypass surgery break-down was performed July 31, 2013, following the original done.15 years prior. But I had no choice. Eventually I was going to die from some other STRANGE, BIZARRE complication . That was my life but took about 10 years to put it all together. 

Almost a year later I'm finally gaining weight..no at first...until about 3-4 months ago  I've have so 
far put on about 23+ lbs and see no stopping. 

Certainly I'm not obsessed again, but AMAZING how fast it comes on. I mean DAMN.

Went from size 2's being too loose to buying 8's and I look  like a shorty with chunky legs and all hits my GUT. I JUST WANT IT  TO  HAULT FOREVER .

WENT FROM SIZE 2 & now I look.like a cow in size 8.

Makes me wonder if you truly can be HAPPY with yourself.  Always seems to bevan open can.of 24/7. 

Published Article regarding complications from Gastric bypass surgery

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/16390883?i=8&from=/17366112/related

Revision around the corner. Scared.

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I've didn't seem to keep up with the blogging thing.  But always appreciated the nice responses and well wishes I did receive the past year.

Maybe if I didn't wait until 1,2 3 am I would have kept up more.

A year ago I replied to "Steph" about regretting surgery 14 yrs ago. Got bombarded with recent and healthy patients (hope all stay healthy) asking what " I did wrong"' & continue doing wrong. "Why didn't do more homework" etc .

Well, July 31st @ 6 am Dr. Robert Davis will be doing a revision, "take down of RNY".  OF course I'm terrified.. Wonder what is the point now... I already look like a freak.   It's not going to give me my teeth back, that were once perfect now gone, won't fix my marriage of 14 years,  certainly won't have men knocking down my door , the disability will never be enough for the estimated $20K to repair my mouth. So I'll avoid pics at call costs, don't have many with my kids past couple of years, taking bites or trying will be an issue.  All the other body, mind  damage won't all be repaired. This will hopefully stop it from getting worse, of course that's no guarantee either. But for what reasons ? This is what I keep asking myself OVER, OVER AND OVER . Just more financially in  debt?
More strain on marriage ?  

If you're considering the gastric bypass with RNY or any weight loss surgery, I can't say do your homework because I did mine . It just didn't work out for me and I look and feel the worst I ever have in my entire life.

I'm not being like this the drag everyone down , but I want people to know there are more people out there like me.

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Yea....yea I know I am not good at" this" , not sure what "this" even means! No clue if I am the only one who can see my "blogs" , I 'm kinda thinken' I hope so 99% of the time. :-)
Going through old pics on my tablet and ran across my "Glamour Shot" done back early 90's. I mean COME ON...didn't everyone do one of these??   My cousin and I had a few cocktails,  it was close to Valentines Day,  she was having marritial problems then, I was still married to my 1st husband and we felt the need to be Glamerous!
When this was taken my daughter was about 1 & I was about
130-135 #'s then, but back then had REALLY, REALLY LARGE BOOBS....not happy about it...being 5ft, 130#'s and bra size was triple D +Double E's...squeezing in both of those, just was miserable for me and my back.
Long story short ( I really don't have "short stories" , but will try)..had back surgery in 1992...& got approved for breast reduction due to my proportions and my wonderful surgeon wrote a letter of medical nessecity and I was approved. Had reduction, still "normal" size then...had perfect C cup boobs made.
Went through a seperation,  later a divorce and got up to 239 #'s & double D+ again. Now 102 #'s and I am SERIOUS when I say I am a" NEGATIVE A". Padded bras get me up to a 32A!  Crazy...never would of "thunk". 
I've wanted a boob job for past 5+ years...and tummy tuck from so much weight loss....but the past year or more...NO, I do not want any unnessecary surgeries...and I now know that if I had those cosmetic surgeries done now..."that won't be the final thing(s) that makes me happy".
I owe that lesson learned to my husband, thank you, "Gumby". (*He's weird about me posting or saying anything having to do with him...sometimes I think I embarress him. So I won't use his real name, yet.
But, thanks anyway :-)
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I'm doing this for the first time and have no clue what or how to "Blog"; but I'm doing it for me . So any mistakes along the way I won't care and hope everyone else will cut me some slack. I'm a 13 year "veteran" Gastric Bypass patient. It's only been approximately the past 2 years that I officially feel, and admit out loud, I wish I had not done the surgery. I was 239 on my surgery day and now I'm lucky , and excited, when I reach 105 pounds. My life has changed drastically, I have changed drastically. I'm not doing this to talk anyone out of weight loss surgery, I'm doing this more for selfish, therapeutic reasons. Sooo much has happened these past 12+ years...which I'll slowly get into in future blogs, if I keep this up! If anyone does read this and has issues or knows someone that has or is going through medical, which leads to mental, problems as well, I would love to know. Not that I wish this on anyone, but I wouldn't feel so alone, not that I wish this on anyone .